E M O T I O N
shut it off. I hate it. I don’t want it. I always say how id rather feel pain then nothing at all. But I wish everything - every small movement we make - didn’t hit my soul personally. I wish I didn’t over analyze everything. I wish I wasn’t fucked up. I wish I didn’t drink so much. I wish I was a beautiful dancer, that I could love myself more. I wish all the weeees didn’t hide so many cries.
So, I don’t usually blog very much. It typically consists of me re-posting and posting pictures and videos that I enjoy very much - not a lot of me talking, since I clearly do that enough in real life. However, I do journal quite a bit, but again no one reads that except for me. So, I decided to start blogging. Especially since I am about to embark on a crazy journey in the Middle East to dance school. Or, as my band calls it, “Paris Goes to Dance College.” Maybe I’ll create a separate blog for this, who knows. I want people to see what’s going on in my life while I am there. Sure, I’ll be dancing everyday like it’s my job. But I’m also IN THE MIDDLE EAST. Hello.
Anyway. Over Christmas break I talked to my grandmother about blogging while I was over there dancing. Just about my experience, and learning about the culture. But also, I want people to know that have a passion to dance, or even travel, how possible it is. My dance background isn’t extremely strong, but look at me go. 5 months in Jerusalem dancing professionally. This is something I really wanted to do, and with motivation and determination I made it happen. I had some help and support from family and friends, but all the money I made was based off of grants, scholarships, and crowd funding. Like my dad always said, you can do anything you set your mind too. And I am proud that I am a witness to that saying.